BREAKDOWNS AND SUNRISES

sometimes i feel like just breaking down.

actually i take that back.

i don’t feel like breaking down.

i DO break down.

last Sunday in church i just broke down in complete tears.

i was so insanely busy the previous week and felt like i didn’t have one simple second to just breathe & relax.

i glanced over at my little brother Mitch in sacrament, realized how soon he was leaving on his mission, and couldn’t believe how little time i have had to spend with him before he leaves.

then i look to my right to see my sister isabelle. who gets married in 2 short weeks only to realize i haven’t been able to make it to ONE of her bridal showers yet. not ONE. i haven’t gone to any of her dress fittings. haven’t helped her design what our backyard will look like for the wedding. haven’t helped her stay up and stuff invitations. i haven’t been apart of one piece of this special process for her.

then it became ridiculous when i looked over at Castine (we babysat her again!) and realized how little amount of time i had to spend with her the whole time we babysat and cried even more.

after leaving church i decided to make a simple pact to myself.

regardless of how busy i am, i decided to make the most of each day the second the sun rises.

every morning when i woke up i was going to soak up those little, rare, free moments even MORE than ever before.

i didn’t care how busy i was.

feeling sorry for myself wasn’t going to magically clear up my schedule.

i WAS going to make it to one of isabelle’s bridal showers even if that meant requesting work off.

i WAS going to call Mitchell up and chat with him on my drives to and from Provo to make up for the days we haven’t been able to spend together.

i WAS going to soak up every moment with my favorite little girl (Castine) while we babysat her.

and let me just say.. by doing this i definitely did feel a lot happier this past week!

here are some things this week that put a huge smile on my face….

i decided i wanted a new doormat to spruce up our cottage

this one did just the trick.

i took work off to go spend the evening with all my girl cousins celebrating isabelle & grace who are both getting married this summer!

Castine & Will drove all the way down to Provo to visit me during one of my 11 hour shifts.

we went to lunch and then played some arcade games at Provo Beach Resort.

she definitely thinks i work at the Arcade.

should i mention now that Will drove all the way to Salt Lake with my car key in his car and had to drive all the way back to Provo right after?

let’s move on from that sensitive subject.

i played with “Castine Olivia Elsa Anna Ariel Tempest” in the morning time before work

i took more time to notice the pretty, simple things this life has to offer

i didn’t have work on the 24th of July (Pioneer Day) until 2 p.m. so i was able to go watch the parade downtown with my mom and siblings in the morning!

stopping by the best donut place in town on the way down did just the trick.

(i am currently OBSESSED with their blueberry donut!! i can’t shut up about it)